Thursday, May 5
it hurts when reality strikes
i guess what jon tang said was so true. i was upset, not because he said the wrong thing, but because i was never able to face up to it.
i need to rant, i need to cry.
but i cant.
never in my life have i ever feel such an urge to spill out the f f f f f f word
i'll not, i wont.
i remember this day when i was walking out of sch with lydia and her friends. i vaguely remembered lydia's friend rushing down to nj cause her bestfriend was upset abt not getting in.
then i look at myself. 4 people claimed me as their besties. but, where are they now? those who are beside me now are not them. but thanks anw for being there. just as i typed this, eu msged me, telling me to take care. thanks dear.
i feel so childish talking abt such trivia matters at this age.
urgh.
