Saturday, December 31
and so we say farewell to 2005
it's that time of the year again, and as usual, i'm always alone at that point of the year. but no fear, i'm actually quite used to this kinda lifestyle. well i guess staying home and chilling with myself aint that bad right? but i cant help thinking of what the oc says, the person whom u spend new year's eve with is probably the person you're gonna spend your year with. so i guess it's right in some sense. i cant run away from myself, and besides.. i have nutmeg with me; and my parents sleeping upstairs.
2005, what a year indeed. though the year passed by real quickly, there are still things like the first day of school in cj, in ac respectively that i still remember, though those memories feel rather old and dusty. well many things happened this year, if you have been reading my blog for sometime, or know me personally, or perhaps know me by name, by face; you'll probably know that.
but despite all the nasty things that occured this year, i would have to salute to year2005. cause though the processes were painful and arduously long, it helped me learn. it gave me insights on things. friendship, family, love, life as a whole.
on friendship;
the forging of the new, the building of the present and the lost of the old. like mentioned, i made new, strengtened and lost friends along the course of this year. i painfully lost
my best friend: reen. (to forces i still think are absolutely trivial) but nevertheless, those trials tested our friendship and came to the conclusion that our friendship was not as strong as we thought it was. at least.. i thought it was. like jiang has asked- "do you think you guys can be friends again?"
well.. yes and no. but i'd think that we're happier off on our respective lives, cause with that, we can avoid those conflicts; i can avoid the pain that stabs me each time it occurs. but those 6/7 years of friendship we had were great; and i'll keep those memories in me. hopefully i'll be stronger with the coming of 2006, and perhaps, i will feel less pain each time i bump into you.
love
the new; jun. and others like mal, monique, lyd hung, nette, gwen, huat, fok, mabel, jp, cia, sean, eve, linc, ced, youwei, yenhui...
but i would like to especially mention jun and mal.
jun; being my emotional support all the way, through the hard times and all. she was there at my best, she's there at my lowest. "undercurrents" like i mentioned, jun stuck through with me the whole time, she heard what others heard, but she trusted me, believed in me, and respected me. and i can never be more thankful to her. and now that i've got her, i never want to let lose of this friendship easily, and i'm gonna make sure the following year would be as good or better. thanks jun
and mal; being my confidant, i can quite safely say that he's probably one of best guy friend around. he like jun, stuck with me through the whole journey and never failed to listen to my endless ramblings. thanks mal
and the others who were there to lift me up whenever i stumble, this year was fun because you guys made it.=)
the present;
i'll never forsake those i have with me. cindy, jx, che, charlene,jing, michellelee (you're one even though we arent alright now) you guys should know how much i love you, cause from the bottom of my heart; i do.
so many have came and go, but of those who remained, thank you, and i'm looking forward to another wonderful year with you.
on family;
the can never be replaceable. this year, my sister's absence took it's toll on me, but i got by, thanks to the support of my mum mostly. and i'm glad we've grown closer in the span of this year. i can talk more to her, be honest with her and she learnt to accept more of me as laura and not as candice's sister.
and dad.. maybe he's changing? i'll keep and open mind to that.
i love you mum, sis and dad.
on love;
i loved and lost this year. but i will believe and pick myself up again.
thanks for those who loved me.
on life;
i guess throughout this year's journey, i've became stronger. i learn to accept things that dont go my way more gracefully. i've been moulded to take issues with a pinch or salt and adjust myself to those situations. i've mastered this amazing ability to numb myself to factors that cause pain and hurt (though i occassionally lose control of that ability) but as a whole, i'm happy with my final change. the intermediate-- i'm not so proud of. but now, i like the way i am.
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so i guess thats it. it's time to look ahead and not back to 2005. cause i'm sure 2006 will be a better year. at least.. it cant get any worst. thank you for everything guys, i love you.
and to those that matter, embrace 2005 and may 06 be a blast for all of you.
love,
la