Friday, March 17
the days away..
you're not coming back.
its 2.16pm on a friday and my exams are only 2and a half days away. i've completed.. lets see. nothing. i just cant sit down and study all those topics covered in this year which i have absolutely zero idea on because (according to amanda: i sleep too much ). yes i'm gonna fail. but i dont want to fail .. you see the consequences are kinda too hard to bear, yet i'm still sitting in front of the com like a duck.
okay. i've decided to list out the reasons on why i cant start, so maybe i can rectify them and get on with my work
1) i'm too lazy
2) i'm still tired from bandar
3) whenever i sit at the table i feel like playing music from those newly bought ipod speakers
4) i'm constantly hungry
5) i just feel like training and running but by shoes broke down. (as u can see, bandar killed them)
6) whenever i touch those foolscape pads i cant help but writing those long letters to her
7) the thought of her possibly leaving tmr is enough to kill me and make me sob for hours
8) i just feel like going running again
9) i'm wearing that stupid xyz shirt
10) where the hell is she, what is she busy with. wtf!
okay, apparently all of those mentioned above are not correctable. i'll just sit here and mull over my stupid life and wait for gwen to come online in hope that she'll offer me a lifeline.]
i sound like a slightly deranged kid suffering from self imposed stress who is standing on the edge of a weathered-well with stones constantly chipping off at the bottom of my feet; ready to give way any moment. and yes, if it breaks, i'll drown. cause i cant even swim.