Friday, March 24
now let go and breathe
finally the last day of terms has arrived. i find myself rather amusing sometimes. like how i'm being constantly reminded that i actually DO like studying. yup. i do! but like every other normal person, laziness and procrastination often gets the better of me.
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so now i'm shifting my life back to hockey. at least for the next 2months. it really hit me the other day when luddy suddenly brought reality to me and told me that yes, season starts in no more than 3 weeks. and look at us, at least look at me. what have i been doing? eating like an average of 10 chocolates everyday, junking on snacks, not running for a week ....
and now, i'm really scared, i'm literally fearing the time when we face the test of our skils out on the pitch.
after trng today, i really felt that firstly, we're not ready as a team. we have the potential, but like dawn has been saying. our defence may be strong. but attacks, us.. we just cant score. and secondly, i'm not ready. mentally, physically. well so, hopefully i'll be able to pull myself together and commit myself to a really strict regime of physical runs.
for starters, i'm gonna go run tmr morning! oh, as u can see, i'm NOT gonna attend school tmr.=) and for the first time, mummy did not nag at me and as a matter of fact, she's shopping with me tmr! =D
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on the darker side, talking with classmates today really brought back some memories on certain individuals that left a mark in my life in the past. no, i will not mention names.. but yup. they sadly still do haunt me whenever i see something which relates to them or as and whenever their names are mentioned. guess letting go isnt the end of a memory.. hopefully time can blur out those issue eventually.
and i cant help myself but discuss the matter regarding this apparent good friend? or previously good friend of mine. i'm really crossing my fingers that my suspicion is wrong. i've already been disappointed by you once. i honestly hope you dont do this to me again..
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for one, someone's gonna be back tmr=) yup. being seperated at this time did help me in realising that yes, i can survive without jx. but if give a choice. i rather not.=)) oops, so much for independence!
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Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell that I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you with first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you
Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?
