Tuesday, August 1
it's just harder than it looks
and so i was asked to look at the newspaper, pg20 of the strait times. it was a page featuring the this year's a*scholars. and yes, my cousin's (who is just one year my senior) face is up there.
and my mum went like.. "you're smarter than her"
getting a scholarship really isnt such an easy thing. but it's just somehow someway that my sister and my cousin managed to make it look so easy peasy.
i'm really glad for them, that yes.. they get free education and they're recognised to be like the cream of the crop.. blah blah..
but it just makes everything just harder for me. i'm expected to do as well as them, expected to get a scholarship and expected to be all that.
yes of course i would love to be in their shoes. to be able to do the course i want, without worries about money and how hard it would be on my mum. but it's just isnt that easy as it looks.
it just sucks to be told repeatedly that you're supposed to be better than them when you're not actually performing better than them, or as good for that matter.
especially when you're here struggling to even complete half your required syllabus before your prelims in less than 2 weeks. and yet you have to just smile, and act as if that you're all so ready and prepared.
it's just not that easy..