Monday, October 9
Where do we stand?
time and time i've come to realised that you'll never win. or rather, i'll never win. i can't fight to force this, i cant fight this for you.
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so i met charl yest, and we had a really long talk during dinner and after. much talk revolved around those times and the complex issues we're all facing now.
if i were to compare myself back then in j1, i think i'm more ready to deal with those issues now. firstly, there's honesty. this is probably the most honest period i've ever experienced in my entire life. good or not? i've yet to decide.
then there's control. i think over the years i've learnt control the hard way. but control does not imply that i want it any less, but i'll just be less intense in showing it. i'm ready to protect myself should things not work out or should it leave me one day.
but where do i stand with those thoughts?
pretty much still no where.
i'm still caught up with this wild goose chase aren't i?
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can i please announce to the world that my BRACES ARE FINALLY OFF!
i just realised the application date of one of the unis i intend to apply to closes in like 6 days.
not very smart,laura.