Wednesday, April 25
Can't fight who we fall for.
i just happened to be lucky.
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the past few days of insomnia has got me thinking quite a bit.
as some may have heard, yes we indeed went through a couple of rough patches over the past few days. but you see, quarrel as we might, we've moved on and we're still holding on to each other to conquer the next few fights and hopefully, all of them.
it's hard.
but really.. no one said loving was easy.
imagine two separate individuals who has led half their lives as possibly complete strangers. and yet coming together to try to assimilate their lives into one, to function in synchrony as a single unit.
okay. you may think i'm making this sound extremely complex for fact that you, the reader who's reading this, think you're possibly in love with another. but if you can survive each and every fight without ever thinking of backing out or giving up.. then congratulations, you've met your match:)
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just thought i share a little supposition i developed around the idea of rightful ownership.
but just to set things straight, i say this with absolutely no contempt or intent to hurt, upset or anger should you find this situation relatively similar to what you possibly went through or am going through.
okay back to that.
righful ownership/ righfully belonging to..
one can only claim it to be rightful should he/she consistently value the object, person, pet, etc.. over time. there should be no points where disregard, inappreciation, ingratitude, disrespect, or uncertainty should set in. no periods where one can simply declare that he/she has simply have enough or that they need a period to themselves simply because of pure self-centeredness. neither should there be an expiration date attached to that for a rightful belonging is a lifelong commitment and not just a point of, period for company and entertainment sake.
valuation and appreciation should not only set in in view of competition, or when fear for loss dawns upon.
for that, that is not rightful. but only belonging.
but that being said, no relationship should be undermined with these theories of my. cause i honestly still believe that so long as you're sincere in whatever relationship you're in or were in, the feelings, those emotions are still considered real. but maybe, just maybe.. there was an end attached to them and the match was not found.
okay.. i'm just going to sleep on that and move on to thinking about one of the other many issues in my head.
gosh. this is simply why i'm suffering from insomnia.
but rest well, no fear. for the pill is here!=)
delirium you see, i'm off to eat my sleeping pill.
good night.
