Saturday, February 19
reen just left one hour ago. i'm really glad i have her. she visited me after school today and we basically talked alot. i guess i really can tell her everything that has been bottled up in me for sometime. no awkwardness, just purely me.
this is the 8th year of my friendship with doreen. had loads of ups and downs with her. but we managed to brave through all that. and i can confidently say she's my bestie and me,hers. i remembered the times i called her when my pets died. the times i went her house to watch vcds. the times i went to work and her mother's beauty salon. those memories are sweet and they managed to overcome all the bad ones. honestly.. i wont be who i am now without her beside me. thanks loads girl. (i know she wont be reading this, but still.. i have to express my gratitude and love for her her)
ok. i'm feeling really unhappy and down now. but i'm thankful those unhappiness was brought up and i came face to face with them. i need sean now. i need to talk.
honestly.. now i hope i really have whatever the doc thinks i have. i want to avoid school. i dont want to face dentention, face the teachers, face the tests that i missed. face everything.
i feel like running out of my house now and go drink. go club. go do something. i'm sick of being cooped at home. sick of it all.
i'm running